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Just give me some time to figure some things out

Everytime I feel a little bit of turbulence,I just fall back and fly a different route

And she thinks I talk to too many girls..

If only she knew how much they didn't mean..what her & I share is totally on a completely different world

So now I'm just here thinking..what's she thinking

They say miracles can happen at a blink of a eye..so I'm just sitting here blinking

Every text or ring I get I hope its her..I told her everything I needed to tell her,but was it good enough..I won't be sure

So now I'm writing since it's basically the only decent thing I know how to do

It's funny how I was trying to let go of the past,but those same messages are the cause of the problems that we're going through

So I guess I have nobody to blame but me

It's been two years with nobody..but me

And she's number number three

And I don't want to go over five

That's only if God's willing and I'm still able to love & still be alive

Because life will push you to the edge..And how I'm feeling now..I'm ready to dive

I'm not afraid of the fall,I've been at the bottom before

Most of the time completely numb,so no one can hurt me more than I can hurt myself..and that's something I'm completely sure

I always vent to you..because I don't feel like there is anyone else safe to vent to

While I'm just writing these words,part of me feels like I'm meant to

"I'll still be around,when it all falls down,I wish you would learn to how to love people and use things and not the other way around"

So now everything is just laid out on the ground..

You were here the entire weekend,now my place is so quiet..silence is just the loudest sound

I guess I never learn,now I just want another tattoo..

I've kinda got used to the pain of the needle and the burn

And we both feel like we're going crazy inside

I told her that's nothing to be ashamed of,I so messed up I had to make two different blogs just to let everything out..I really have nothing to hide

Could probably write to this song forever..The say the first step is admitting you have a problem..so I hope we get better..

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