Valerie

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If you knew I was drowning…would you just watch and point like the others

I could probably say there was one girl who actually cared..will I ever find another?

Because one day…I will no longer try to stay afloat 

Eventually after having so many holes inside of it..your heart will sink forever ..kinda like a boat

The lights are bright around me,but it's pitch black inside

You act like you care about me,but I can see through the real intentions you try to hide

Why do I play along?Maybe for once..I just want to be wrong

Still searching for where I belong,when you find the girl you want to take to the top…people won't be happy until you're shot back down like King Kong

Maybe I should diagnosed with something…but I don't want to be put on any medication or pills

I'd rather deal with it naturally,so I will continue to bleed out in my poems..untill one day it finally kills

It's all just a game,It's all just a game

But are the players..or the creators the ones to blame

Or is it equal…some treat love & war the same

They don't care…unless it's in their favor,something beneficial to gain 

Soundsofmywords might be done forever

But I was always told to never say never

I feel like it's time to focus on Youhurtsowell

Maybe just because I've been hurt so well

When your in that trance of 'love',you're probably under one of the strongest holds or spell

I still regret the things I did to you..if you couldn't tell

Every year it gets worse,the amount I have fell

Maybe meant to be an angel…but it feels like I keep getting closer to Hell

Hoping for the best,but expecting the worse

It's probably been half a year since I've been inside a church

Maybe this is what I get,always thought maybe it would be a blessing to forget

Things might never get better..is what I've learned to accept 

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