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I'm telling you, I'm telling you
You don't understand
Everyday, Everyday, I say I'm going to change
But life never goes as planned
One second I want to fly
The next I just want to land

("It's ideal..you need someone to tell you how to feel
and you think your happiness is real,there is so much more the world has to revel")

This beat is unique,
blocking out everyone,does that mean I getting stronger or does it show that I'm weak
I know I can do so much more in life,I still haven't reached my peak
'Kiss Land' by The Weeknd,he loves us so much,he made his album leak
Now I just want silence,only the words from my poems will speak
Turning my back on everything I used to seek
Nothing in this life is promised,There is nothing for us to keep
I'm constantly dreaming while I'm awake,I don't even need to sleep

("Because everything you'll been through has made you stronger
And everyday you learn about yourself
and nothing will be played out like it's suppose too")

What will my final answer be?
If I keep changing the lock on my heart,it won't matter who has the key
Sometimes I'm not even sure if I believe in me
But I still believe in God,even he though he might be something I never see
Life is just life,in the end does it really matter
The real me would rather be anti-social and avoid all the chatter
In a world where we are forced to fit in
In a world where at a young age,we are programmed to want to win
So what if now I want to lose,what if I want to throw everything away,and losing if what I choose
They say with time all things will heal,but my heart still has this black bruise and it's preventing me from believing anything you say to me is real

Hate it when people ask me what's wrong or if I'm okay
Maybe if they read my poems,they will understand that only here is where I feel safe to say everything I need to say
The clouds in your world might be blue,but it mine they are always gray
But I wouldn't want them any other way
Some of us have to pay for the mistakes the other people refuse to pay
The sadness that can't be erased,the pursuit of happiness I refuse to chase
Everyday you continue to lie to yourself,is just another day you choose to waste
So accept the truth,and do things at your own pace

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