Losing the feeling..

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Ears to listen
A heart to love
A brain to think
A body to drug...

do our words say enough
or do our actions do

Losing the feeling..I just keep on losing the feeling
What do I believe in..what should you believe in
We all want to go,but just what are we leaving
Life isn't about grieving
It's more about holding the one you love & just relaxing in the evening
what we lost,we may never find
Lets change the things they say we cant
Things will be ok..I promise you things will be ok

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Dec 25th,

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I'm tired of this,I just want something thats real
Your in my dreams,but in reality your something I can't feel
So take me away,Take me away
I just want to fly,no longer want to stay
All my hope has gone away
But it seems the doubt is here to stay
The Great Escape,running to somewhere where you cant find me
Somewhere my past can't sneak up..and try to remind me
I'm I some type of monster..who else has these types of thoughts
Never been a cutter,but still always wondered how quickly my blood would clot
But if I go too deep,will it be too late
Then I remembered its only after your gone,do they remember you were great
I've already entered my golden gates,the way I twist these words into the poems I create
Maybe I wont ever write anything good enough to quote
But at that really matters to me is that I wrote

Another way,Another day
you can try to talk me down,but this is the type of game I like to play
you think your in control when your really not
Same old story right?not so sure,this one might have a different plot
I given alot...I've given alot
Now I just want to fall
Watch me gracefully fall..just watch me drop

Did today have a meaning..or did we just give it one

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December 25th..people smile in your face,give your presents,
but the lies have begun..

The Beginning..

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The first feeling of pain...which no one could name
The first loves the sweetest.but the first cuts the deepest..so who can we really blame

The doors are shut,and they are closing on you
And after I say goodbye,there isn't nothing you can do
I've held on too long..my hearts faked strong to long
Why when you do everything right,does everything feel so wrong
Love was my only drug,now I have to find satisfaction through this bong
Where do I belong....Where do I belong
Listening to your heartbeat use to be my favorite song
Now I hate it,and I wish it would stop
You might of had the key,but I doubled the lock
So now what are you going to do
What exactly are you going to do
You never seem to understand,guess my words could never get through to you

The second feeling of being alone,is probably the worse
We thought it wouldn't happen again,guess life is a blessing,but continuing to live is a curse
So now I feel like a total ghost
I can see everyone & everything..but when it comes to knowing me..no one can come close
All I feel is pain...I've lost all 3 hearts in this video game

We should play again...this time I would win...and you would lose
The cards were always in both of our hands..but being nice is what I choose
And what does that get me....how far did it go
People only think of their self's..that's all it really shows
Looking for the one who really knows
Because being around all these fake people really blows
And its so cold & windy here
I could blow away...but who would really care..

YouHurtSoWell...this is the start of something new
This is where we can share our pain, sincerely from you to me..

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And me to you...