The Birds..

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We have this thing called 'love'
Some abuse it,or some just don't know how to use it
It's one of the hardest things to find,and it hurts beyond words when you lose it

And when I hear the start of 'The Birds', I start to get chills
All these thoughts from the past,none of these shots of hard liquor can kill
I guess we should be happy it happened,or glad it's done
But what do you do,when the party is over,and all the fun is done?
Who do you go to?How far do you need to run?
I guess you & I, is a horrible mixture, like drinking loads of rum & loading a gun
To me the moon is the most beautiful thing,the sun is just the sun
And everyone pretends to be so happy,that shit gets on my nerves
All those nights when my hands used to get lost on all your curves
I always write about the things I should keep a secret
But I'd be safe,because this is just my blog,it's not like anyone's going to read it
I've seen alot in these 23 years,but I haven't seen enough
Learned from a young age,it's okay to be who you are,we don't all have to act tough
Some days are going to suck,some days are going to be rough,
But you have to believe in yourself,you're the first person who needs your trust
I'm sorry,sometimes I just go on rants and write,I've come to accept that maybe things will never be alright
No longer try to escape these thoughts at night,
I just try and focus on helping the ones around me shine bright..

Once you hit the bottom,the only way to go is up
I have faith in my 3 little brothers,that on day they will catch up
Or better yet even surpass me,When I'm I coming back home..is the question everyone always asks me
Tomorrow will make it 2 years since Ive been gone
I hope in your eyes...I've done more right then wrong
My heart & mind are rarely getting along
So now I just try to live my life through the words of my favorite song
'Hold on We're Coming Home' who knew things would take this long
Who knew our hearts could be so strong
I know problems only get worse when they are something you prolong
The faster we all take care of them,the faster we can all get along
That's is something I always talk about..because I just want peace
Peace with who is living...Peace with the deceased
Some go to early,Some go to soon
Always shoot for the stars,so if you miss..you will land on the moon
Before I go,I want to leave you with these words..
Spread your wing,fly high,don't get stuck in anyone's cage..be as free as a bird

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GoodBye

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I'd rather be a ghost than be a shadow
Use to feel real high,now I just feel mad low
I don't know what's better,holding on or letting go
If all they do is tell us lies,what truth do we really know
I think I'm scared to love again
Because if I fall for her once again, It's going to be the same story all over again
I say fuck life,I just want to write
And for once open my eyes and see that the world is alright
I try to talk to God at night
But he won't give me the answers,so I assume as long as the sun continues to rise,everything will be alright
Also keep thinking about my next tattoo
The pain of the needle doesn't come close to the pain I hold inside,but most of you don't have a clue
And they say if it fits you,go ahead and wear that shoe
But we have people walking around homeless & shoeless,what's a poor soul suppose to do
I always hear about the talk of change,but nothings changed,we all are still on a different page
Or chapter or book
Even the blind can see,all the things that we overlook
The things that matter,the people who care
I just want to go back to when we were kids,and the coolest games were spin the bottle and truth or dare
But I dare
You to try to be different,instead of being the same
Look back 5 years,and see how far you came
When there's a drought,we cry for rain
But then when it rains too much,we don't want it anymore,we're so confused
we treat life like a game

Starting to fade away again,maybe it's too late to pull me back
Always having visions if I went away today,just how everyone would react
Everyday we do the same thing,I think we are all searching for the same thing
But most of us don't even know it,probably won't ever even show it
Take away all the things we don't need,what if there was never a thing as greed
What if the only hunger we ever had to feed
Was the hunger for love,we can start now,question is..who's brave enough to take the lead
Lost in the clouds,lost in the sky
I just hope when I die,heaven doesn't pass me by
But I don't think that could happen,even if I try
We all just need a second,to close our eyes and tell our fears goodbye

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Out With The Old

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Waking up,I don't even know what to think
My eye lids show an image of you every time I blink
The world is an ocean,everyone else if floating,but all I do is sink
So should I back off or keep going
Half the battle is knowing
The other is going
Going all the way,not giving up and allowing fear to steer you away
Just do you,don't care what they say
And yes,everyday just leads into another long day
But I'll keep crawling..crawling until I finally find my way
Not everything you hear is true,not everyone is going to have faith in you
Not everything broken can be fixed with glue,I guess some hearts are meant to be left,.. as two

I see the faces..the faces of those who have been done wrong
Have I caused some of those faces,please them me I'm wrong
We all are just trying to fit in where we belong
Find the right melody,sing the right song
Fight the right battles,live right & live long

Trying to be here at till the end,
We all need a friend,
Not just the ones who pretend,
But the ones who understand the message you're trying to send
I've been at the bottom,but I promise to never be that low again
And if I ever am,I will climb back to the top
You have to keep fighting,fighting until your heart stops
They want you to quit,they want you to need them
But as long as you can see your dreams,you don't need to see them
A race against time,no a race against you
And the only finish line,is when you accomplish all the things you ever wanted to do

We meet for a reason,and we fade away too
Sometimes it's as simple as out with the old,and in with the new

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