Cassita..

It's like I lose someone close to me every year, death is a known concept, but still something we all fear

Now I have to bury my younger cousin,and now she'll never know Thanh was planning on proposing to her next year

We grew up together watching Rugrats & Dexter's Laboratory  

Now I have to live with the fact that now she's dead and I didn't visit her in 4 years,what a way to end our story.

And my tears don't even mean a thing,the pain is so real man...I don't even know where to begin

We're not suppose to have favorites, but she was my favorite cousin

More like a sister to me,..At one moment it feels like you have everything,now it feels like I have nothing.

Why'd she have to go

All the family members are asking how long has she been this sick,but no one knows

It's true the good ones go

When I found out you were on life support at the hospital..of course I wanted to go

Now it's too late, And now I live with the fact that we have to let you forever go

You were like the sister I never had, on the days I hated life...you helped showed me how to see the good with the bad.

These are the days I wish i didn't have to see,

We used to watch Power Rangers..just you and me

You were a better person than me

Now you smiling again is something I would never see

Now I can never see or hear your name

How the fuck am I suppose to live life the same

They took one of my favorite people,that shit will always be in my veins.

And this all happened so fast,we had so many plans for the future..but now all I can think about is the past

I don't even want to talk to God,sparing her life will be one of the last favors I'll ever ask

You were always an angel,but who knew you would take this path

I love you more than life itself, I never thought you would go so fast..

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In a couple of days I'll be 25, but the only thing that has been on my mind lately

is about all the ones who didn't make it to 25.

They will never know how it is being us ...tiptoeing around the racism just to stay alive

We gotta think twice about every action..we die getting choked out by the police while being arrested or being shot with our hands up with nothing to hide

I wish I could help all the family members who have cried

I can't imagine the pain you must be feeling, and believe me I've tried

They say I shouldn't worry about it, since everyone in my immediate family is okay

But if we all think that way,12 will always get their way

Holding onto everything before it all falls apart

I bet when one of us die today, the media will already be on the scene before the paramedic's vehicles even start

I gotta play happy & dumb sometimes, since when you woke they call you crazy

Still in the military, but not even that can overshadow the color of my skin, so not even that can save me

And there aren't any neutral sides..because when it all comes down to it..it's either us going to prison, or traumatized mentally..since we barely make it out alive

Which is why I'm not a big fan of history since the more I know..the more I hate it

They always mention Christopher Columbus, but none of the slaves who helped make it

And that's just the basis,

The truth is hard to swallow, ignorance is bliss, and most of their comments read "Obama is black How can America be racist?  "

Sometimes I scroll through my Facebook feed and see just how much they're misinformed

It's sad but I can't blame them though if hate & oppression is all they ever learned

I really don't think they could handle it, if the tables ever turned

They say all men are created equal, but it seems that doesn't apply to us since we are still protesting like human life is something that has to be earned
It's sad to see that the forced labor of my ancestors who built this country...that the love they should have received  will never be returned..

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