305 To My City..

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I'm still seeing places..I never dreamed I would see

I will never forget the people who always seem to see things in me, that even I can't see…

I'm not sure where I would be without you..

I'm not going to lie,sometimes these days alone are hard without you

I won't stop until you can possibly have everything you ever want or dream

Half way across the world,UK to America but we will always remain a team

And I have some people in Dubai..it's more like a 'to be continued' not really a goodbye

One of my best friends just got sent home,

I didn't even get to see him off,sometimes I'm not too sure what thoughts are scrabbling around my dome

Talking to someone,but where will it go..where will it lead

Not thirsty for that,but I'm hungry for love,and lessons from history show that one of the biggest misfortunes are greed

So I'm slowly separating all the things I want versus all the things I need

Back in boot camp I knew it line for line,hate to admit it but now I probably couldn't even recite the Airman's Creed

Where is it all really going?

This is probably the only place where I can be totally honest..that's what all this writing is showing

Are we really happier not knowing? 

I feel like I'm missing the most important moments,I can't even see how fast my little brothers are growing

I get it,I get it

You will always be something special to me,don't you ever forget it

(281) (713) (832) that's my city

I would give it all up for you..I just wish you could be here with me..

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Secrets

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"There are two kinds of secrets: those we keep from others and

the ones we hide from ourselves."

She said she feels alone,she feels all by herself

She wants to experience love,she never known how it felt

All the words don't mean a thing..

If they simply slide off the tongue and not from that warm place within

How can you make someone happy..?If you're not happy yourself

All these people around are just pretending..I'm the only one who really wants to help

But that isn't enough..nothing ever is

Nothings really changed,we just want to be accepted, kinda like we are all just that one new kid

These days occur more than often when I don't have much to say

At the end of the day,who is really listening anyway

No one really knows you, do they..

Making the same mistakes..

Will only bring you back to those places you hate

The illusion of love,is what they feed off of,but also what they mastered how to fake

So I'll tell you again..it's all just pretend

A wolf in sheep's clothing,an enemy as a friend

I hate this game we play..because no one really wins anyway

No one really knows me,do they..

Some things are better off left unsaid

They say 'Don't just a book by its cover' but does that still make it okay to judge after its been read

The only two things that should really matter,is what you feel in your heart & what you know in your head

But instead..

We treat each other like we are already dead

With no love in sight,no one will ever be alright

It has been a bad week & a cold and dark day

No one really knows us,do they..

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Vulnerable

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Is anyone out there really happy? I just want to know

It's been 23 years..and I just want to grow

Grow out this hell,and be set free from this spell

I have a couple cousins who live like their prisoners

It's like their house is just one big cell

And I used to live with them for a while

 I just wanted to set them free

So they can live life the way it's suppose to be

But what exactly is life suppose to be

I guess that will have to remain the biggest mystery 

I keep listening to sad songs..Maybe because they appeal the most to me

And I guess I didn't appeal to you

I always care too much about people who don't deserve it,but that's just me being too true

And I hate being honest

Always being told I'm too negative,but we're living in a world where nothing is promised

I wish I didn't have to be so nice,

If only I could treat these girls like all the other dudes do,with a heart & soul as cold as ice

What has your days really become?

It seems like you're searching for the wrong things..constantly having to be someone else to have fun

Why I'm here?And why are you reading this

Is everything going the way its supposed to..or is there something I missed

It's already November so that means December & Christmas is pretty near

I hate this time of year

Because people think fake smiles and presents can make up for the entire year for which they didn't show they care

I'm just trying to let it all out,because I'm tired of holding it in

The moment we can all be comfortable with who we truly are,is the day I think we can all win

This writing thing…I wonder if it's a blessing or a curse

O that's right,I can just pretend everything in my life is perfect,but that would be worse

So ready to find out my next base..England was cool & all but I think my heart is meant for another place

Learning that my dreams & goals are the only things I should chase

It's been two years…and I finally got to talk to her

I asked when I finally make my return to Florida..what are my chance of seeing her…but she wasn't sure

Things are different now..so I might of lost my place

I told her it's okay,I was the one who said we should just be friends..that was probably my biggest mistake

So now I'm just here & I don't know how to end this

It's like this poem is just one long angry text..not really sure if I should send this

But I already wrote it,so it's basically done

They say only the real are truly Vulnerable..so I guess I'll be the only one…

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