Golden Rule..

Heavy on the mind..
Weighing too much on the heart..
When there's so much unspoken history..
Where exactly should we start..
You're the better half of so many people..
Why is there always so much opposition for the ones who just want to be viewed as equal..

It's not your fault, the way you are..
And what I mean by that, is just how special you are..
People love to hate what they don't understand
They act like taking away their ability to do something is part of the plan..
You shouldn't feel as if you're a burden just because of your religious beliefs or if you're trans.
Why do they believe they have the power to say exactly what happens on our given land

Growing up all I heard about was the golden rule.. but I've rarely seen it exist
Put yourself in someone's else position..how would you feel if your choice of being accepted inside the armed forces didn't exist.
Ignorance is bliss..but that's only one side of the story
Ignorance is actually very painful if your on the other hand of privilege and what they call authority
You shouldn't be treated as a nuisance just because you're a minority
Understanding trans people isn't a burden, should be one of our priorities

Learning how to accept & grow from other people's differences should be a normal way of life..
Before you say something negative, look in the mirror and ask yourself does your response help worsen peoples chances...or help to make them right.

Beautiful Shame..

You reminisce on the days when time didn't just pass you by..

Your eyes have seen so much, it just keeps your heart wondering why..

No one wants to talk about the truth, so we're all just living a lie..

People don't understand the true meaning of missing someone until they pass away & you're forced to come to terms with a insufficient goodbye.

Learned to give up on certain people until they make the effort to try..

It seems sometimes we have to grow apart..

To grow together..

I know that's not always ideal..

But its better than sitting around waiting & wondering why..

You just wanna get high, I just wanna see us fly..

Fly above all the obstacles we weren't meant to get by..

Running out of options, what else is there for us to do..

Been believing you will prove us all wrong,but so far that hasn't been true..

It's the worst when you see something greater in someone,

But they're too blind to see it too..

Communication has been so thin,
It's like we no longer have anything to say..
Before we used to type so much those 3 little dots indicating someone is typing was always on display
Now all we see is 'message read' or 'seen' and we turn our phones away..
But I'm good accepting this is the way things were supposed to be..
It's been natural occurring thing to lose the people closest to me..
Learned through reading that no worldly possession ever truly belonged to me..

If we could go back in time..
Would things have ended this way..
The only regret I have in life..
Is not visiting her in the hospital..
Before they announced my favorite person passed away..
I think ever since that day I started to turn alot colder..
Maybe its a mix of that and simply just getting older..
Stopped doing everything for people,and learned to do things for myself..
Started removing anything or anyone toxic and discovered new ways to improve my mental & spiritual health..
A part of me is always hoping you would just break down & ask for my help..
That's a different story, for a different time..
I've written so many words,but there is still so much left on my mind..
I guess even after all these years, I still hate to see any one's heart get left behind..
You deserve to be loved too, I always had loyalty but finding real love was the hardest thing to find..

So many names I wish I could erase..
But everything has its time and its place..
After years of running, when you finally cant run anymore..
You'll start to see that no one is worth the chase..
Anyone who wants to be there, will be there..
And whoever doesn't, wont.
You don't need them as much as you think you do..
The only person you really need will always be the person staring right back at you..

And Isabell is always staring right back at me..
We use each others eyes & hearts to see the things we cant individually see..
It's funny how people start to switch up once they see your on the road to finally being happy..
I don't let it phase me though.. I know its all just a game..
They all want to compete because they want to feel the same..
I wish them the best.. I truly do..
People will do whatever it takes to get your attention..
When deep down they just want to be like you..

We're all just as much different, as we are the same
Always yearning to be loved, figuring out a way to numb the pain
One things for sure though, if I ever gave you a piece of me
You'll always feel a rush of emotions when you hear my name
It seems most of us are better as strangers than we were as friends
Such a beautiful shame..

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Thoughts From A Different View...

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Yearning for your words like a desolate lover in the waiting room..
The outcome is rarely what we want to hear..
Things are drastically so different now..
I wonder if we're still the same people..
I pray the answer is no, since that would make more sense..
If the answer is the opposite, it means we no longer care to show it..
Always prepared for the worst outcome..
That was always the safest way as a kid..
Everybody constantly forces the projection of their happiness onto us..
It really gets exhausting..
Where are the deep conversations?
Where we remove our ego and communicate, soul to soul..
Like humans were meant to..
The memories insult me as each day flies by..
Discovered the simplicity of forgetting instead of forgiving..
Trying rather than lying..
Letting the tears fall instead of holding them back..
We show more love to social media than we do to the people itself..
We judge every second we get the chance to..
We mastered the poker face of smiling even after we're broken..
Never knowing how to ask for help
You can ask me. It's okay..
As soon as you speak from the heart, everyone wants to ask if you're okay..
If something is wrong, are you depressed..
Why question the one speaking the truth 
And not the rest afraid to say it..
Our society as got so accustomed with questioning/blaming the victim..
Look at the rape culture,the drug abuse..the cops killing our people.
They take advantage of the weak and voiceless instead of providing love & support.
This has gone longer than it was meant.
But we like to watch things spiral out if control, don't we?
At least you know it's not perfect.
Nor photoshopped, it's real.
Back to the waiting room.
After waiting for what has seen to be an eternity.
I leave.
Never sure if we make it out alive.
I just got tired of...

Do Not Disturb..

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Time just became the hardest thing to spare,
You have to carefully choose the ones whose worth all the positive vibes you're willing to share.. 
These people will pick apart your greatest qualities and leave you with all their insecurities, Man I swear.. 
Used to run from the truth...but now that's all I wanna hear.. 
I've had to deal with too many people here that just need to disappear.. 
You act like you can't see what you've done, but I trust in karma to help make it clear.. 

You wanna waste time, but I don't have any time to waste.. 
Two things..
I'm still chasing my dreams & I only allow the most humble inside my space.. 
People like to act like it can't be done, be trust me you can be replaced.. 
Just thought you should know incase you end up losing your place.. 
Even with Amnesia and Alzheimer I have a couple real ones who can never be erased., 
Those are the ones who showed me that great things come at their own pace.. 
My angels in disguise, wishing Godspeed until I see your face.. 
Your dreams are the only thing in this world worth for you to chase.. 

Isabell still surprises me everyday, 
She's so lovely, I wish I could marry her again everyday, 
The only star I see throughout the entire day, 
If we're talking about hearts of gold, there's none better you can find, 
6 years of military service and she was worth all that time, 
I'll stand in the background, I just want to see her shine, 
So as long as we got each other we'll be fine.. 
We have everything we need so 'Do Not Disturb Us' or "Bitte nicht stören" 
Please respect the above line..

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