For My Brother Chris..

No rest in peace will ever do, So I had to sit down & write this in memory of you..

And it's like fuck man, now you're really gone

You always were that big brother to be…who helped me move along

Would it be wrong..to say that this world did you wrong?

I know the type of person you were deep down inside..You were more than just strong

I wish I was there to maybe jump too or to hold you back…

Now I'm just thinking of you & Kevin..confused why they put us in a place where when you try to love..it doesn't love back

So numb inside…that I don't now how to react

Would give it all away..just to bring you back..

Bring you back to when we were kids..

From bunk-beds..to summer camp..You went through a lot..but you kept the darkness hid

Now it's all brought to the light..I don't care about the facts…I'm just hurting to know that you weren't alright

From Germany all the way to heaven..in my thoughts & poetry is where you always stay..

I tell myself this world wasn't good enough for you..and in my opinion that's how it will always stay..

You'll live forever,the memory of you will never die..

I still don't want to believe it..but sooner or later I'll eventually breakdown and cry..

And everyone is wondering why..

The truth is..we all know life sucks..there's no need for us to try to find a reason..or anything for us to justify

This doesn't change a thing..

No Chris,this doesn't change a thing..

I wish I had some pictures of us,but sadly they're all the wayback home..

We used to chill with John,Blake,Akram,Shelby,Trevor & Taylor..that will always be the fam..you loved to rep New York..but Houston always felt like home

Now I'm sitting in my place all alone..wondering what made you feel so alone

Man, if I would of known..

I bet everyone is secretly thinking to themselves if only I would of known..

That's the problem though..people only seem to care when it's too late

Why does it take someone to die,for all of our feelings to all of a sudden become awake..

I'm guilty too..I'm guilty too..

I had to isolate myself from everyone else..since I've made some bad decisions too

But this this isn't about me..this is suppose to be for you..

I'll make sure to help take care of little Mike.. and no matter what man..we will always still be proud of you..

It's crazy to know that we are the same age..

I just wish we were on the same chapter..same book..same page

I always feared of losing someone..while being so far away

But now that I think of it..no matter the distance..most of us are still so far away..

You have to treat each other like everyday is your last day..

Tell people you love them,send them flowers..don't wait until they pass away..

I don't really know how to end this Chris..so I'll probably secretly write a part 2.

Just know that we will always be brothers..And that I will always love you.

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And I'm still here..

Helplessly waiting for you..

Please don't abandon me..

Like the rest always do..

I might act invincible..and o' so brave..

But the truth is,

My biggest fear is dying unloved,alone in an unvisited grave

So stay with me..

Stay with me please..

With you the days don't feel so unbearable..

You seem to bring the joy out of me with ease..

I promise to do my best..

To the others,it seemed like the worse..

But sometimes we need a blessing in our lives..

To overcome the curse..

So stay with me..

Stay with me please..

I don't want to hurt anymore..

And you make all the pain seize..

Stay with me,I promise to stay true

I haven't met anyone worth all my love before…That was until I met someone like you..

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