Any Last Words..

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And just like that,it's my turn to go
If only I knew back then,what I know now,maybe it wouldn't be so hard to let go
If only I knew the amount of amazing people I would meet
It was never a bad moment with you all,we made the best out of every week
Traveling the world with the ones you would give the world too
Nothing compares to that feeling when you're around the people who truly know you
It's safe to say that it's been more than real
We had the type of presence and connection that a whole room could feel
It's a small world and even a smaller Airforce
I know we will all meet again,I'm just going to let destiny run her course
Looking back now,I really have no regrets
You will never what great times life has in store for you,you never know what to expect

How are you suppose to say goodbye to everything?
Just like that pack up all your stuff and move like it's not anything?
And that's what they expect us to do
Hate isn't the worst thing in the world,I would say at this moment,that it's leaving the ones that love you
I never saw this moment coming,even though I knew it would come
Looking back though,I wouldn't take back one thing...no not even one
It's safe to say I've fell in love with the people I have here
This place has basically been my home for the last two years
The memories never change,so at least that is something we all get to equally keep
I'm thankful for whoever is looking down on us,for every single soul I got the chance to meet
The best times are still ahead of us,at least that's something we can smile about..we still haven't reached our peak
Who else from our hometowns can say they partied it up in Sweden,and threw up S.O.G in the street
Amazing people like you,will be hard to find
I guess this is see you later..until we all meet next time

I still have a couple things left to say
I'd like to thank anyone,who helped me in the past,or who continue to help me on my way
They always say life is what you make it,and that is true
You can keep yourself locked away forever,or break free and become a better you
I've said this before,the world doesn't need anymore pretty faces,what it needs is kind hearts
Alot of us have been broken inside our entire lives,now we just want to be put back apart
So will you be the person to help them start?
The world gets colder and colder..all it needs is the warmth from you heart

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Brain

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I can see you're hurting..I've been hurting too
I can see you don't trust as easy anymore..I find it hard to trust too
I can see you you no longer believe in love..Nowadays I'm not sure if I believe in it anymore too
But I can tell you one thing..You and I...we're here for something
There's no way...that all of this could of been for nothing..
You want to matter..you want to be heard
You don't want to be told 'I love you'.. just because it might be the right choice of words
You want a way out..You want to let it all out
You want to the words that come from your heart..to be spoken out your mouth
You're tired of the games..and everyone acting the same
You know it's not important to try and be 'cool'
You know it doesn't make you foolish to give someone your all..even if they could never return
that same love to you

All the lies..and goodbyes..
The ones who forgot about you..after the first try
The ones who never took the time..to really get to know you
Shout out to the ones who still show their love..and still care to discover every little thing
about you
Life is too short..and we might not get another try
Live your life to the fullest..don't carry a bag of regrets to the grave when you have to say goodbye
I can still remember the first time you said 'Hi' and we locked eyes..
When I'm drowning through the lows..our memories carry me to the highs
Now your out chasing your dreams..I always believed in you..all you had to do was try..

It's been forever and more..
I no longer know where I'm going..or what I'm doing for sure..
I just know I'm suppose to help and provide hope..
Because even when I'm not able too..It will make me feel 10x better if someone else could cope
So I'm here for you..tell me the things no one else would listen to..
People use their brains too much..I wish when they made decisions..their hearts weren't missing too
Loving each other should be the easiest thing to do..
But when we put too much thought in it..it becomes a game..
That's when it's game over for me..
And game over for you..

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Waiting All Night..

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Tell me,Tell me..But just don't tell me the words I want to hear

Still the furthest thing from perfect,but when you have the right people in your life..they don't care

Stuck in a never ending cycle of hello & goodbye's

Trapped in a maze full of nothing but twisted truths & lies

Riding this roller coaster of high & lows..

We are have somewhere we're meant to be..some of us are just scared to let go

Let go of everything we no longer love or need..

The happiness inside you just wants to be unlocked & freed..

Three deadly sins that are destroying this world faster than anything…lust,envy & greed..

Used to search for the meaning of life..but know I know it's something I can't find

Life is whatever we make it to be,once we'll truly understand that..I think we'll be fine

Everyday we wake up,then later on we go to sleep

I hope I can live to see the day..when there are no more homeless on the street

If one person is hurting..we all are

We are all connected in someway or another..no matter how close or how far

If only we would wish more on each other..the way we used to wish on a single star

We can sometimes only forgive,as soon as you try to forget..someone reopens up that scar…

The three I started with are already gone

I can still remember us singing 'Crew Love' in Ashlee's flat,that was our song

Anthony,Ashlee & Sarah..I know we'll all be placed where we belong..~

It's been XO love from the start,I wear my heart on my sleeve and xo on my arm..

The stars may be to high for us to reach..

But we can't always get what we want..so loving certain things from afar is the lesson they teach

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DMT 2

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And it's never the same..

How my day really plays out vs what I imagine in my brain

I always think I spread more love,but all I see is more pain

Once we start drinking & partying..it suddenly starts to become a numbers game

Sad thing is I know better..I hope my mom isn't ashamed..

Threw away something good,just to suffer

But everyone said it made sense…if I didn't really love her

Life is going great…I noticed that the past few days I feel happier to be awake

Your dreams will only come true,when you stop listening to the ones who are fake

Some chances only have 1% of working out,but you miss 100% of any shots you didn't take

So I'm out here taking chances like I'm taking pictures

I wonder how much is actually true in all those bible verses & scriptures

There're so many realms of happiness out there..why would you choose the darkest one?

I have no choice but to something great..I'm my mom oldest son..

Three little brothers who follow behind..

Nathan,Michael,Jordan..I love y'all,don't ever think you're not in the back of my mind

My story here in England ends May 31st, we'll all be reunited soon..just a matter of time..

The world is one big exploration…what treasures are you destined to find?

Writing my heart out,until I run out of words

Love doesn't just have to be a noun..it's better as a verb

So don't just love with words,love with your actions

We can miss out on the greatest love of our life..if we allow lust to be distraction 

So pay attention..WeHurtSoWell is something I wanted to mention

('We're all going to die,all of us.What a circus! That alone should make us love each other but it doesn't.

We are terrorized and flattened by trivialities. We are eaten up by nothing'-Charles Bukowski)

Don't be eaten up by nothing..allow yourself to be something

Those who don't try... get nothing..the ones who try & fail at least learn something..

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DMT

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So we're at a standstill..

Everyone's asking if I'm your man still..

But the answer is I'm nothing…I'm nobody

Until I figure out this plan I'm suppose to fulfill 

Who I'm I?

What are you?

They say true love only happens once

And if you lose it…then what are you suppose to do?

Listening to DMT by XXYYXX

If you were to ask me, truthfully I couldn't tell you what next

So far from home..

We're all so far from home

Some of us are afraid of it..

But the truth is in the unknown

Can the water rinse away all of my sins?

What did we just do…what if you were due to have twins..

This life doesn't feel real sometimes

They always want you to read between the lines

But between you and I

There are days when I no longer want to try

But this can't be the end

The music takes me away…one of my truest friends

If you don't love yourself..can anyone really love you?

Sometimes I wonder if there are really angels or this thing called Heaven above you

But I know I can see the stars

Most of us are all out of drive,we just ride in cars

UFO's, Aliens & Spaceships..

I can't be the only one looking for the exit

Is it possible for us to just start over?

I hate saying goodbye…get this hells angel off my shoulder

DMT,it seems I've feel in love with the night..

They've promised us..in the end everything with be alright…

And if it's not you can always come get me..

In the past…I hoped the future would forget me…

It will get better I promise..

Keep your dreams as big as space..as high as asteroids & comets..

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In Vein..

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The time is always ticking..Every new day is a reminder that I'm running out

Had one of my best weekends with some amazing people,after May I wonder how it's going to be without

When the drinks stop flowing,and the club lights stop glowing

Reality kicks in..without me even knowing..~

How do you tell someone something,your not sure they're ready to hear?

Only when you start doing good is when the fakes really start pretending to care

I could be anywhere..And still radiate my love everywhere

Surround yourself with good people and you'll be fine

If your not trying to progress than the only other choice we have is to leave you behind

No time for tears,it's not about how many years you have in your life,but more about how much life you have in those years

So throw away all your fears,The only person you really should be competing with is yourself,forget your peers

People will always do what they want,and always have a opinion

Do what you want,it's always better to ask for forgiveness than to ask for permission

Just got promoted a couple days ago,but have always been on the same mission

Trying to find that thing,every one else is trying to find

Still working on unlocking my 3rd eye,but they say great things come with time

So some one time me,still having dreams of disappearing for good,so no one could find me

Why can't we all realize our souls are the most important things,for some reason we still we pay more attention to the body

Our eyes are easily deceived,sometimes you have to be the first person to believe

So believe in me,I won't lie to you,this won't be easy

Life will put you in those situations where you feel uneasy

Now look at the kid,can nobody stress me

I don't got a single vein of hate in my body..

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305 To My City..

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I'm still seeing places..I never dreamed I would see

I will never forget the people who always seem to see things in me, that even I can't see…

I'm not sure where I would be without you..

I'm not going to lie,sometimes these days alone are hard without you

I won't stop until you can possibly have everything you ever want or dream

Half way across the world,UK to America but we will always remain a team

And I have some people in Dubai..it's more like a 'to be continued' not really a goodbye

One of my best friends just got sent home,

I didn't even get to see him off,sometimes I'm not too sure what thoughts are scrabbling around my dome

Talking to someone,but where will it go..where will it lead

Not thirsty for that,but I'm hungry for love,and lessons from history show that one of the biggest misfortunes are greed

So I'm slowly separating all the things I want versus all the things I need

Back in boot camp I knew it line for line,hate to admit it but now I probably couldn't even recite the Airman's Creed

Where is it all really going?

This is probably the only place where I can be totally honest..that's what all this writing is showing

Are we really happier not knowing? 

I feel like I'm missing the most important moments,I can't even see how fast my little brothers are growing

I get it,I get it

You will always be something special to me,don't you ever forget it

(281) (713) (832) that's my city

I would give it all up for you..I just wish you could be here with me..

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