Speedin Bullet 2 Heaven..

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It's not okay, it's never okay..

How they feel so empowered to just pick up their guns and take people's lives away

The media will say, whatever they feel they should say...

But more importantly we should try and focus on the ones who were silenced that day

All those lost lives, And for what reason..

They say to never lose hope in mankind, but I feel so close to not believing 

The hate will continue to eat us alive if we let it..

Imagine reading a text from someone you love saying "I'm gonna die" how could you possibly forget it?

With over a million questions speeding through our heads..

The most important thing for us to remember is to spread as much joy & happiness we can before we lay in bed

We have to remember, that in a couple weeks this won't even be a thing..

But to the families and to the community, this might have been everything

I try to imagine the screams, the cries, the terror..

To all the survivors this isn't just something on the news but something they will replay & relive forever

What's it going to take for us to just see each other as equals and start to work together?

It saddens me to know the answer to this question just might be never

They say we learn from our mistakes, but how many do we need to make?

I hope we can learn soon..

For all our sakes 

The saddest part is that this could happen to any of us, anywhere..

That line isn't suppose to instill fear..

But to do the total opposite and to remind us to cherish every moment..

And to make the best out of life while we're all still here

May our prayers reach everyone who is far and near

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Cassita..

It's like I lose someone close to me every year, death is a known concept, but still something we all fear

Now I have to bury my younger cousin,and now she'll never know Thanh was planning on proposing to her next year

We grew up together watching Rugrats & Dexter's Laboratory  

Now I have to live with the fact that now she's dead and I didn't visit her in 4 years,what a way to end our story.

And my tears don't even mean a thing,the pain is so real man...I don't even know where to begin

We're not suppose to have favorites, but she was my favorite cousin

More like a sister to me,..At one moment it feels like you have everything,now it feels like I have nothing.

Why'd she have to go

All the family members are asking how long has she been this sick,but no one knows

It's true the good ones go

When I found out you were on life support at the hospital..of course I wanted to go

Now it's too late, And now I live with the fact that we have to let you forever go

You were like the sister I never had, on the days I hated life...you helped showed me how to see the good with the bad.

These are the days I wish i didn't have to see,

We used to watch Power Rangers..just you and me

You were a better person than me

Now you smiling again is something I would never see

Now I can never see or hear your name

How the fuck am I suppose to live life the same

They took one of my favorite people,that shit will always be in my veins.

And this all happened so fast,we had so many plans for the future..but now all I can think about is the past

I don't even want to talk to God,sparing her life will be one of the last favors I'll ever ask

You were always an angel,but who knew you would take this path

I love you more than life itself, I never thought you would go so fast..

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25..

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In a couple of days I'll be 25, but the only thing that has been on my mind lately

is about all the ones who didn't make it to 25.

They will never know how it is being us ...tiptoeing around the racism just to stay alive

We gotta think twice about every action..we die getting choked out by the police while being arrested or being shot with our hands up with nothing to hide

I wish I could help all the family members who have cried

I can't imagine the pain you must be feeling, and believe me I've tried

They say I shouldn't worry about it, since everyone in my immediate family is okay

But if we all think that way,12 will always get their way

Holding onto everything before it all falls apart

I bet when one of us die today, the media will already be on the scene before the paramedic's vehicles even start

I gotta play happy & dumb sometimes, since when you woke they call you crazy

Still in the military, but not even that can overshadow the color of my skin, so not even that can save me

And there aren't any neutral sides..because when it all comes down to it..it's either us going to prison, or traumatized mentally..since we barely make it out alive

Which is why I'm not a big fan of history since the more I know..the more I hate it

They always mention Christopher Columbus, but none of the slaves who helped make it

And that's just the basis,

The truth is hard to swallow, ignorance is bliss, and most of their comments read "Obama is black How can America be racist?  "

Sometimes I scroll through my Facebook feed and see just how much they're misinformed

It's sad but I can't blame them though if hate & oppression is all they ever learned

I really don't think they could handle it, if the tables ever turned

They say all men are created equal, but it seems that doesn't apply to us since we are still protesting like human life is something that has to be earned
It's sad to see that the forced labor of my ancestors who built this country...that the love they should have received  will never be returned..

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Hold On,We're Going Home..

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And I just want to be home..

Home is where the heart is…and it seems ever since we started talking,with you is where my heart has grown

You came out of nowhere,an angel with no wings..I wonder how far you flown

For you to get to me,and for me to get to you

Sometimes I drift off and think about how all my decisions in life magically got me to you

Some thing won't ever be explained,Some questions won't ever be answered

It looks like with time, some prayers actually get answered..

Prayed for a girl like you..I don't really care what happens to the world if it doesn't include a happy you

A happy Isabell,is priceless thing to me

They say love is blind,but you do the exact opposite to me

With you I can see…

I see how great life can be

I see a beauty I have never seen

I see the twinkle in the stars

I see I'm the happiest I've ever been thus far

I see the girl of my dreams when I go to sleep

I see her face when I wake up and she's still asleep

I see the smile we put on each other's faces when we speak

I see how we take care of one another when we're weak

I see that you're the secret of happiness,one I failed to keep

I look forward to the day when I can hold your hand while your driving and say 'Hold On, We're Going Home'

A safe heaven we built together,with no ones help but our own…

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Where Do I Start..

So where do I start Bell..

Being with you is an indescribable feeling. A feeling people can only feel once felt..

Sometimes I might give you too many baby kisses..or shower you with tiny gifts..but that's how I show my love..and it's something I can't help

But you helped me in ways you may never know..only by showing all our flaws..can any of us really grow..

So I hope to grow with you..as long as we can

No matter the time length..I'm just happy I had the chance to be your man

I'm just writing from the heart..so I hope you can understand..

Faced with decisions..we are faced with so many every day

But at the end of it all..we still choose each other..and I wouldn't prefer it any other way

And you live a couple hours away..

But distance means nothing..when only when they are together..do our hearts feel okay..

I hope to help you reach to a place that's more than okay..a place where all your dreams come true..and that's scary since that might depend on

if you leave or stay… 

Leave or stay..

Who knows if Denmark will be better for you..life just gives us these cards we're dealt..so sometimes we have no choice but to play

And I'm playing for you..fuck it, I'll bet it all..bet it all for you

Donkeys,turtles & cats…almost forgot the moon..I know how much we love that

Then theres that tea..your yogurt & salt..these crazy things you like..will always be imprinted on my heart

But damn,where do I start Bell..

Where do we start..

Maybe with those three special words and I hate when we're apart..

They say your life doesn't truly begin..until you find the person whose broken pieces fit perfectly with your own dismantled heart..

"According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four arms, four legs and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves." -Plato

For My Brother Chris..

No rest in peace will ever do, So I had to sit down & write this in memory of you..

And it's like fuck man, now you're really gone

You always were that big brother to be…who helped me move along

Would it be wrong..to say that this world did you wrong?

I know the type of person you were deep down inside..You were more than just strong

I wish I was there to maybe jump too or to hold you back…

Now I'm just thinking of you & Kevin..confused why they put us in a place where when you try to love..it doesn't love back

So numb inside…that I don't now how to react

Would give it all away..just to bring you back..

Bring you back to when we were kids..

From bunk-beds..to summer camp..You went through a lot..but you kept the darkness hid

Now it's all brought to the light..I don't care about the facts…I'm just hurting to know that you weren't alright

From Germany all the way to heaven..in my thoughts & poetry is where you always stay..

I tell myself this world wasn't good enough for you..and in my opinion that's how it will always stay..

You'll live forever,the memory of you will never die..

I still don't want to believe it..but sooner or later I'll eventually breakdown and cry..

And everyone is wondering why..

The truth is..we all know life sucks..there's no need for us to try to find a reason..or anything for us to justify

This doesn't change a thing..

No Chris,this doesn't change a thing..

I wish I had some pictures of us,but sadly they're all the wayback home..

We used to chill with John,Blake,Akram,Shelby,Trevor & Taylor..that will always be the fam..you loved to rep New York..but Houston always felt like home

Now I'm sitting in my place all alone..wondering what made you feel so alone

Man, if I would of known..

I bet everyone is secretly thinking to themselves if only I would of known..

That's the problem though..people only seem to care when it's too late

Why does it take someone to die,for all of our feelings to all of a sudden become awake..

I'm guilty too..I'm guilty too..

I had to isolate myself from everyone else..since I've made some bad decisions too

But this this isn't about me..this is suppose to be for you..

I'll make sure to help take care of little Mike.. and no matter what man..we will always still be proud of you..

It's crazy to know that we are the same age..

I just wish we were on the same chapter..same book..same page

I always feared of losing someone..while being so far away

But now that I think of it..no matter the distance..most of us are still so far away..

You have to treat each other like everyday is your last day..

Tell people you love them,send them flowers..don't wait until they pass away..

I don't really know how to end this Chris..so I'll probably secretly write a part 2.

Just know that we will always be brothers..And that I will always love you.

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Stay With Me (Who's Theme)

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And I'm still here..

Helplessly waiting for you..

Please don't abandon me..

Like the rest always do..

I might act invincible..and o' so brave..

But the truth is,

My biggest fear is dying unloved,alone in an unvisited grave

So stay with me..

Stay with me please..

With you the days don't feel so unbearable..

You seem to bring the joy out of me with ease..

I promise to do my best..

To the others,it seemed like the worse..

But sometimes we need a blessing in our lives..

To overcome the curse..

So stay with me..

Stay with me please..

I don't want to hurt anymore..

And you make all the pain seize..

Stay with me,I promise to stay true

I haven't met anyone worth all my love before…That was until I met someone like you..

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